Facial hair is growing back on the left side of my face again. 🤘🏻🤘🏻 Currently the texture is like baby hair and it has no color, but growth of any kind is a good sign because permanent hair loss is a possibility wit radiation because it can completely destroy the hair follicles. Still have to shave it because of the texture/color difference, but I assume it will get back to normal over the next couple months. Huge relief tho cause I was definitely anxious as fuck that it would never grow hair again, shit was smooth as baby ass lmao.
My boss and his brother got into a physical confrontation yesterday that i had to break up lol. They are trying to figure out how to divide the company so they dont have to work together. They each own 1/2 of the company.
then today my GF was just bitching up a storm, so i called her out on her behavior and she blocked me lmao.
So thats how this week is going lol.
Im just going to lock myself in a room thins weekend, smoke some weed, game, and continue teaching myself how to photo/video edit. Im pretty much done with dealing with other peoples drama and bullshit at this point in my life. Aint got time fo dat.
Yeah if it was like that I wouldn’t fuck with it lol. She can be pretty mean, and is quite the huge bitch, but she’s typically pretty mature when it comes to arguments usually.
So over the last few months I've been dealing with occasional anxiety attacks. Pretty much the usual existential crisis shit. Never really dealt with that before but unfortunately it was made worse by all the weed i was taking every night. I'd have full blown paranoia some nights where I'd feel tense for hours or just until I went to sleep, it fucking sucks to deal with. Because the weed affected me the way it did, I got back on alcohol for a brief period before I finally signed up for therapy.
I gotta say, since I started these sessions about a month and a half ago, I haven't had any other anxiety attacks, and I've been better about my weed and alcohol consumption. It's kind of wild how much things have improved in that time. I've also kept up with counting calories and maintaining a better diet which has left me feeling great as well. Hell, just getting out of the apt once in awhile makes a difference. I realize that these sessions are very expensive, and not everyone has the ability to be able to do this, but if you can, I'd recommend it to pretty much anyone. I'm finally optimistic about being able to keep this up for the better.
Well, as ive mentioned over the last year or so my work environment has been a wild places. Two years ago my boss and his brother bought the business from their 80 year old father.
There dad has still maintained a book of business and was coming into the office every day, but six months ago he had a stroke. It was pretty bad at first, but hes gradually gotten better.
Anyways. there have been many verbal confrontations, and even physical ones between the brothers. It is just best if they don't work together. So my boss's brother, who sells commercial lines, is selling the commercial book of business for 2.4 million. My boss, his brother in law, and me are moving into a smaller office in October, and i am essentially moving into sales, which means i can basically make as much as i want as long as i want to keep working lol.
Im just really happy its all finally about to be over. Its gotten so wild here that some of the commercial agents will sit in their offices and drink beers lol. I stopped giving any fucks and i just turn my essential oil defuser on and hit my vape pen in my office lmao. When i posted that of someone watching a sinking ship that's exactly what it is.
Its a shame because this place is an absolute cash cow. We only have 8 employees and last year we brought in something like 500k profit. They are just making money hand over fist. But it will actually work out in the long run for me, because my boss's brother is pretty selfish, and my boss is completely opposite. It will probably take us a couple of years of sales to be doing really good, but were going to kill it.
Its just a relief all the drama is over. My boss also had a bit of a bipolar episode during this and mental health care is a mess in this country. Its been a long 6 months. but summas here bois \m/
My girlfriend just got hit with a bunch of financial issues, and now needs to get a second job. I've had no luck in my job searching - not a single company interested, after looking for a sustainable job all year. My job keeps toying with the idea of paying me more/promoting me, but nothing set in stone. All of my friends are having financial problems, living paycheck to paycheck. My cousin is moving back in with his parents after 6 years on his own. Peers right out of school can't find jobs that are willing to pay any more than minimum wage. People with degrees, cant make more than minimum.
It's all so fucked. Everyone I know is broke, depressed, and desperate right now.
I still can't afford to move out of my parent's place. My audio career is dead in the water. My band is going nowhere. My Youtube channel is dead. I'm sick of working nights and weekends. And I can't find a new fucking job that's willing to pay me more than where I'm at now.
Was supposed to go to Nashville for a few days in October, but will be cancelling that now. Can't afford vacation. I don't know how some people afford to travel.
My girlfriend just got hit with a bunch of financial issues, and now needs to get a second job. I've had no luck in my job searching - not a single company interested, after looking for a sustainable job all year. My job keeps toying with the idea of paying me more/promoting me, but nothing set in stone. All of my friends are having financial problems, living paycheck to paycheck. My cousin is moving back in with his parents after 6 years on his own. Peers right out of school can't find jobs that are willing to pay any more than minimum wage. People with degrees, cant make more than minimum.
It's all so fucked. Everyone I know is broke, depressed, and desperate right now.
I still can't afford to move out of my parent's place. My audio career is dead in the water. My band is going nowhere. My Youtube channel is dead. I'm sick of working nights and weekends. And I can't find a new fucking job that's willing to pay me more than where I'm at now.
You and everyone else right now feels the same way. You’re a musician. Channel that shit and write some damn songs.
Props to anyone getting by on their own these days, it’s fucking hard out here. Feels like I passed the poverty line just to have poverty line follow behind and keep chasing me like an 80’s slasher film lol. Shit should be way further behind in the rear view mirror than it is.
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then today my GF was just bitching up a storm, so i called her out on her behavior and she blocked me lmao.
Im just going to lock myself in a room thins weekend, smoke some weed, game, and continue teaching myself how to photo/video edit. Im pretty much done with dealing with other peoples drama and bullshit at this point in my life. Aint got time fo dat.
I told her to keep doin it cause all she’s doin is pushin me away and she could get left.
She got left. 🤣🤣
Granted, it was over SO many things and the blocking was jus one of the many representations of the garbage type of person she is, but still.
I gotta say, since I started these sessions about a month and a half ago, I haven't had any other anxiety attacks, and I've been better about my weed and alcohol consumption. It's kind of wild how much things have improved in that time. I've also kept up with counting calories and maintaining a better diet which has left me feeling great as well. Hell, just getting out of the apt once in awhile makes a difference. I realize that these sessions are very expensive, and not everyone has the ability to be able to do this, but if you can, I'd recommend it to pretty much anyone. I'm finally optimistic about being able to keep this up for the better.
There dad has still maintained a book of business and was coming into the office every day, but six months ago he had a stroke. It was pretty bad at first, but hes gradually gotten better.
Anyways. there have been many verbal confrontations, and even physical ones between the brothers. It is just best if they don't work together. So my boss's brother, who sells commercial lines, is selling the commercial book of business for 2.4 million. My boss, his brother in law, and me are moving into a smaller office in October, and i am essentially moving into sales, which means i can basically make as much as i want as long as i want to keep working lol.
Im just really happy its all finally about to be over. Its gotten so wild here that some of the commercial agents will sit in their offices and drink beers lol. I stopped giving any fucks and i just turn my essential oil defuser on and hit my vape pen in my office lmao. When i posted that of someone watching a sinking ship that's exactly what it is.
Its a shame because this place is an absolute cash cow. We only have 8 employees and last year we brought in something like 500k profit. They are just making money hand over fist. But it will actually work out in the long run for me, because my boss's brother is pretty selfish, and my boss is completely opposite. It will probably take us a couple of years of sales to be doing really good, but were going to kill it.
Its just a relief all the drama is over. My boss also had a bit of a bipolar episode during this and mental health care is a mess in this country. Its been a long 6 months. but summas here bois \m/
It's all so fucked. Everyone I know is broke, depressed, and desperate right now.
I still can't afford to move out of my parent's place. My audio career is dead in the water. My band is going nowhere. My Youtube channel is dead. I'm sick of working nights and weekends. And I can't find a new fucking job that's willing to pay me more than where I'm at now.