Felt this. Ended up losing enough from chemo that it’s hat season permanently now until it grows back. Big ass bald spot in the back and I was able to comb over it before but now it’s jus too thin all over so combing it in any direction jus causes bald spots elsewhere. I’m about to cop some Rogaine and hopefully it speeds up the regrowth. I kept enough hair that once I grow back at least an inch or so underneath, it’ll cover the bald spots. That’s why I decided not to buzz the rest off.
I use rogaine daily. I also have some other things. There's a really good hair doctor I see Glenview if you're interested
Lol it's an autoimmune disease I have. Basically it attacks my hair follicles, and leaves bald patches. I get it bad in my beard. No serious health threats, but it's hell on my mental health, as someone who enjoys having a beard and long hair.
Oh shit right I remember you talking about it sorry my dude
My grandma asked me for years to learn and play her "happy birthday". I never did it. "Didnt have my guitar with me" "too busy to record it". I kept thinking "there's always next year". Now I'll never be able to
You still can. She'll hear it. I know its easier said than done but there's no point crying yourself to sleep over shit you wanted to do with/for her that you never got to do. I learned that lesson over and over this year with my ex and my aunt. We as a society don't forward think like that. We kind of view everyone around us as just being here or in our circle forever even though we obviously know everyone of us has an expiration date. Pondering over what could have been done is just gonns poison your mind and add extra time to the grieving process. Celebrate what you did get to do bro and the memories you did make. If you need anything don't hesitate to reach out.
I think Ive hit that point where I need to start differentiating between "possible careers" and "hobbies"
Im wasting my time doing so much shit that doesnt matter. Ive diversified what I do so much that I dont feel proficient in any of it. I feel like Ive wasted my time learning skills that arent helping me succeed in life. And I feel like Ive spent so long striving for my dreams and goals, that Ive been unable to reach for any real life opportunity.
And I think I need to really narrow down what I want to do with my life. I think Im done with Youtube. I think Im done with the music industry even. Hell, I even think I'm done with recording and my band to a degree. None of that shit is going anywhere. None of that shit is successful. None of that shit has any long term future. Hobbies, nothing more. And so my time spent on them, is going to significantly decrease.
Im going to search for a normal business job that can pay my bills. Probably get a second job at like Target or something to supplement, and live just working paycheck to paycheck. Dreams and aspirations dont mean shit. I feel like I just wasted the last 10 years of my life and have nothing to show for it.
Bro. You've been doing something you love and enjoy. Dont think for once you have wasted your time and not achieved anything. Music is your love and your passion. Better to do something you are passionate about than to spend your life doing something you hate or have no interest in simply for the sake of having a job
It doesnt pay the bills though, and there's no potential for growth or promotion. At some point I just have to grow up. And right now that means working for a paycheck, not passion.
Fair call. But dont throw it all away. Keep your toe in the water so to speak and keep your contacts in the industry. Keep doing what music related things you can do in your spare time so it doesnt feel like your entire life has become a boring 9-5 cycle..another/better opportunity might come up in the music industry in a year that you fall into and love
It doesnt pay the bills though, and there's no potential for growth or promotion. At some point I just have to grow up. And right now that means working for a paycheck, not passion.
Have you tried any other companies that could provide growth or potential?
It doesnt pay the bills though, and there's no potential for growth or promotion. At some point I just have to grow up. And right now that means working for a paycheck, not passion.
Have you tried any other companies that could provide growth or potential?
There's nothing in Illinois. And I'm not quite ready to move out of state yet. We'll see how I feel in a few months or a year or so.
Now that I've spent a day working on my resume and shit.
I'm not going to completely give up on this. I'm going to expand my career options to doing something else for a while, until I can find a job in music or entertainment that can financially support me. But I cant just give up on it. And I won't just give up on it.
Take a break and reassess the situation. Not every hobby needs to be a side stream of income or some big successful thing. Keep some shit just for fun. Don’t make everything another job. Hard enough to launch one project, let alone several projects, especially when while you alone spin all the plates. You don’t just play guitar in a band. You sing, play, write, record, mix, and more. Plus you have to play all the games for all of the hours, record videos for those, then do more editing. Plus conventions so add trying to pro level cosplay. Jack of all trades, master of none. Perhaps narrow your focus for awhile.
You’re definitely not gonna be any happier at Target.
Officially got my port removed today. For anybody that doesn’t know, a port is a small little device that’s inserted under your chest and connected to a vein so that they can stick that every time they draw blood or give you chemo drugs. Otherwise you risk “chemo veins” by getting stuck in different places all the time without it.
But it’s officially out which is a great milestone and hopefully I never need one again. I started radiation yesterday too and I have 3 weeks of that, last day is a couple days into January. I’ll have a PET scan shortly afterwards and should be officially labeled as in remission at that point. 🙏🏻🙏🏻
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My grandma asked me for years to learn and play her "happy birthday". I never did it. "Didnt have my guitar with me" "too busy to record it". I kept thinking "there's always next year". Now I'll never be able to
Im wasting my time doing so much shit that doesnt matter. Ive diversified what I do so much that I dont feel proficient in any of it. I feel like Ive wasted my time learning skills that arent helping me succeed in life. And I feel like Ive spent so long striving for my dreams and goals, that Ive been unable to reach for any real life opportunity.
And I think I need to really narrow down what I want to do with my life. I think Im done with Youtube. I think Im done with the music industry even. Hell, I even think I'm done with recording and my band to a degree. None of that shit is going anywhere. None of that shit is successful. None of that shit has any long term future. Hobbies, nothing more. And so my time spent on them, is going to significantly decrease.
Im going to search for a normal business job that can pay my bills. Probably get a second job at like Target or something to supplement, and live just working paycheck to paycheck. Dreams and aspirations dont mean shit. I feel like I just wasted the last 10 years of my life and have nothing to show for it.
I'm not going to completely give up on this. I'm going to expand my career options to doing something else for a while, until I can find a job in music or entertainment that can financially support me. But I cant just give up on it. And I won't just give up on it.
I'm just extremely stressed right now.
But it’s officially out which is a great milestone and hopefully I never need one again. I started radiation yesterday too and I have 3 weeks of that, last day is a couple days into January. I’ll have a PET scan shortly afterwards and should be officially labeled as in remission at that point. 🙏🏻🙏🏻