I’m in the process now of the most change of I’ve ever implemented into my life. I’m watching what I eat, consistently working out, started doing yoga and I’m drinking way less. None of it is easy and there are days where I fall off because life has to do life shit or my mental health takes a nosedive. The important thing is to keep pushing. People are noticing, whether they saw me a week ago or a month ago. It’s always a weird look, followed by a short silence and then a “Not to sound weird but you just kinda seem different, like you’re better in a way I can’t describe.” And I’m not doing this for anyone else but I feel that and to hear it is a good feeling even when I’m not personally feeling it. Change is rough but I’ve tried the depressed alcoholic thing for the last like twelve years. I’m digging this new route. Change it up dude. Watching videos like that all day isn’t catharsis, it’s toxicity.
Maintaining a healthy diet and workout regime is hard. Living with weight and alcohol issues is also hard. You gotta pick your struggle. Glad you’re choosing the healthier one.
I didnt think I wanted a lot. A real career doing something I liked, and a band that people were interested in/had regular growth was it. I've changed that to: find a job that pays me a little more so I can breathe a bit. And even that is too much.
Change, growth and progress all take time. You have to break things down into manageable steps towards your goals. What did you do about it today? What step did you take?
I get it but I already work out regularly. I never had a problem with drugs or alcohol and just drink casually for fun. I already watch what I eat. It doesnt help because my life is still stagnant. I've failed to achieve any of my dreams. Im directionless, with nothing left to work towards. I have no dream job or ambition anymore. I dont even know what I want out of life at this point other than "success". But there's just nothing. Im not talented, Im not smart, I dont have connections, I dont have experience, I dont have the credentials. I'm wholely incompetent and unqualified for anything greater. The last year has really made me realize I'm a lot less capable than I thought I was. I started the year thinking I could take on the world, get a new start, get any job I ever wanted, maybe have real hobbies and free time again. And now I realized that was the furthest thing from the truth.
It's not a woahweesme pity party, it’s just me finally being realistic with myself.
Telling you break up with your girl she’s holding you down smh
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