Fuck.

HOODS

My wife's pissed at me and I guess I just need to vent. A buddy of mine came through last night, he had liquor and I fuckin drank. Almost 3 years sober. I got no one to blame but myself. My bands pissed at me, my wife is super pissed. I'm just dissapointed in myself. I'm stronger then that and I worked so fucking hard. This is a huge wake up call that maybe I should start going to meetings and gettin my inside head together. I donno. I feel like shit. I just have always been open about this with these boards so I figured I'd spill the beans here. Going to a meeting tomorrow. Can't get back into drinking full time. Sorry if anyone's mad at me for being a selfish piece of shit. I need to take this one chance I have and roll with it and let it be a lesson. I just wish I woulda talked to someone before I drank. Can't go in the past just looking forward.

Tiger

If you realize you might have a problem and are willing to help yourself before its too late, thats not selfish at all.

FLAT

damn. good luck staying sober doe. why'd you decide to do it?

fucketh_thine_self

Eh man people make mistakes, it's the people that keep making the same mistake that I have no sympathy for. Atleast you know you fucked up and are doing something to try to fix it. It's more I can say for some of my friends who have been to rehap multiple times and will get themselves sober only to relapse a month into sobriety, over and over again

OPP

Mistakes happen. You can't look at those three years as wasted time. One drink doesn't make you the alcoholic you were. You're still a strong guy for being able to do three years completely dry :-bd

If it really is hurting you all that much, just tell yourself that three years far outweighs five minutes. Minor slip up.

HOODS

I just fuckin did it. Wasn't even thinkin about consequences, just had a urge. I been fighting this shit for over a decade. I know that alcohol will kill me if I drink. Luckily I have good people on my life and they're going to bombard me with support. I didn't lie, I was honest with everyone. All the guys in the band are in drug/alcohol recovery. That's why our names sicker than most cause in the meeting they say some are sicker than others, were sicker than most. Anyway they got my back and are gonna take me to recovery groups. I think I need to just go in with an open mind and hopefully it helps. I can't blame my buddy it was my choice. This morning the asshole woke up and got drunk again and kept beggin me to drink with him. After like 20 mins of him talkin and spitting at me he fukkin grabbed my shirt. Then I noticed there was beer in my dogs bowl. I told him if e touched me again I was gonna knock him out. He grabbed my collar. I jabbed him, he came at me and I just leveled him into my Xmas tree. He was down or like 15 mins then wanted to fight me and all the druken drama. The point of the story is I'm 28 and need to learn and move on from this and learn my fuxkin lesson. I mean Christ I haven't hit someone except in a pit in like 10 years. I gotta get control o my shit. Fuck.

HOODS

Alex said:

Mistakes happen. You can't look at those three years as wasted time. One drink doesn't make you the alcoholic you were. You're still a strong guy for being able to do three years completely dry :-bd

If it really is hurting you all that much, just tell yourself that three years far outweighs five minutes. Minor slip up.

Thanks man. And you're right I was dry, I think maybe going to meetings and being around positive people like me could help with the internal struggle I always thought AA/NA was like a cult, but it obv works for some. I'm gonna give it a try and stay away from fucking asshole loser alcoholics.

HOODS

Rex is gonna be didsapoint

mrAPE

Think about the people you let down with this. I understand why your wife is upset. Good luck

FLAT

waking up and getting drunk would suck. its a waste of a day.

MetalCoresades

Dont let this slip up discourage you. You've done good for years, you can get back on the right track.

Best of luck man!

1D_for_life

mrAPE said:

Think about the people you let down with this. I understand why your wife is upset. Good luck

HOODS

Thanks guys. I'm gonna get this shit right. Can say it, just do it.

FLAT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q3NrCZvV8Hc

Rex_Capone420

If you have an addiction slip ups are going to happen....the important thing is that your realize your mistakes and have the support system around you to not continue those slip ups

HOODS

Yeah. That's why u was honest with those closest to me. Tryna keep a secret and being sneaky would end up not helping. I told my close friends right away so they can help. I just wish I didn't upset my wife so much, I feel terrible.

SkullAndCrossbones

troll

Gnomez

Mmmmm I thought that too Skully :-?

Gnomez

I mean....who has a Christmas tree up now!?

SkullAndCrossbones

Gnomez said:

I mean....who has a Christmas tree up now!?

well we're pretty lazy here in america. some people have their christmas lights still on their houses in like april lol

SkullAndCrossbones

rex and todd are definitely in on this troll. don't know about ape though