So the person I'm with is, pretty much, a high functioning alcoholic. I can usually contain all of that as long as his mind doesn't run rampant and his emotions don't go everywhere. Because when they do he drinks more 9 times out of 10. Well Wednesday night all through Thursday, that's what happened. I'm not even sure how to be honest. But after so long down that path he doesn't listen to me at all. He increasingly kept pissing me off throughout the night and caused me to not give a fuck what he did as long as he didn't wake my dad up. I punched him in the face a few times, chest once and put him in a choke hold after he punched the floor 2-3 times. Cuz my initial thought was, "fucking great...doesn't fucking listen and now he's gonna wake dad up..I don't wanna deal with that at all." Dad didn't wake up thank Odin. He didn't crash until sometime passed 5 am. Subsequently I just slept on the floor.
Woke up, had a monster and a smoke. Took a shower thinking today will be a fuck ton smoother like it usually is after he falls off the beaten path. But nah, not this time. I kept trying to contain his crazy ass but after a while I can't do anything about stumbling into things and being obnoxious. He's got shitty enough balance when sober so when he's drunk/trashed it's worse lol. And a 5'3 105 lb chick trying to keep a 6'3/4 240 (?) Lb dude balanced doesn't work very well anyway. So he managed to piss me off enough to where I stopped giving a fuck again. I even said some fucked up shit to him in front of my parents which prompted backlash on me.
So everything caused my parents to have a long discussion with him while I sat in the garage trying not to kill anyone and be away from all human contact for a while. By the end of the night last night (around 10 or so) everything was fine. Made him food and he went to sleep. Which was perfect timing because he had to go to work at 11 this morning. All in all he had 1 and a half bottles, maybe a little over, of 1.75 liters of vodka in 24-25 hours. Which is waaay more than usual. Normally one bottle of that will last 3-5 days.
Sounds like she has mood swings, can be close to having or is on her period, could be pregnant again, or she could be bipolar. Idk because I know nothing about your mom besides the very little you've bitched about.
How is it not realistic if you're already paying rent?
I said longterm.
Im only paying $400 a month. But its short term. Only for the school year. Its cheaper than living in a dorm on campus. But its only until next summer. Im running off of money I made last summer.
Then Im moving back home
A job out of college isnt going to be enough for me to live off of long term.
Also, unless my brother or one of my friends agree to live with me for the rest of my life, I dont want to live alone. So it works out staying with my rents for now.
No offense, dude, but if my kids turn out like you, I'm gonna be moody and depressed too. If my son even thought about being one of these loser "wizards" you talk about, or even thought that was slightly okay, I'd feel like a failure as a dad. Nobody wants their kids to completely give up on life and just accept failure. It says something about how they were raised. Your mom knows that. That's prolly why she doesn't wanna talk to you about it. How do you say to your kid "I've failed you."?
It's not the celibacy. It's your overall outlook on life. Reading your posts makes my head hurt sometimes. Just over the last page even. You're talking about willingly wanting to live with your parents...at your age. Ugh...Fuck that. I wouldn't want my kids hiding under my wing into their 20s. I was out of my parent's house at 17. And we get along. I just needed to go my own way. The whole trick of becoming an adult is embracing it and figuring it out on your own. You're like that kid on Game of Thrones that's still breastfeeding when he's 10
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My mom is obviously mad or bothered by something. So I ask "whats wrong"
"Nothing"
Then she goes off brooding and sighing.
Why cant you just say whats wrong? Fuck
Shes so hard to live with sometimes. Irrational and moody.
I go take a piss. Come out, she's moody and crying. Wtf.
Nah, she's just a moody person.
Turns out she's upset because me and my brother dont go out and do things enough, and we dont go out enough as a whole family :-|
Not realistic long term atm.
I do have an apartment in Nashville though. Im paying rent and Im not even there
Im only paying $400 a month. But its short term. Only for the school year. Its cheaper than living in a dorm on campus. But its only until next summer. Im running off of money I made last summer.
Then Im moving back home
A job out of college isnt going to be enough for me to live off of long term.
Also, unless my brother or one of my friends agree to live with me for the rest of my life, I dont want to live alone. So it works out staying with my rents for now.
Depression and anger are genetic on her side. Its where I get it from.
How is that not "slightly ok"?
I think sex is immoral. Most people who decide to stay celibate believe that as well
Translation: I accept failure. Blame morality