When someone on fb decides to say, "how can a tattoo artist own their own shop yet not even be able to tat a straight line blah blah blah"...then when asked which shop they refuse to publicly name names on fb...wtf was the point?
I have a few friends who are great artists and have no problem putting places like that on blast. Because when you do, imo, you're doing a public service. You're saving people from wasting their time in looking for artists/shops. If you're not going to name the shop or artist..stfu
you just compared the death of thousands of innocent people to suicide bombers, to 1 potential suicide that likely won't happen, and even if it did happen, that person chose to die. nice one
Because I used a more extreme analogy so he would get the point. That's how analogy work. You show an example that even they will think is fucked up, and show how it closely relates to them.
Wake nobody looks at your argument and laughs like "oh that guy is so clever." No, you just managed to make the already old and annoying game of picking on MC and make it even more annoying. Fucking Christ if your kids take after you, any time there's a disagreement it's just going to be who can try to pull in the most bullshit and somehow tie it in the point they are getting further and further from trying to make.
Yeah I've pretty much scrolled right past all of Wake's paragraphs of doom in these threads. Same shit different day.
My life has been swallowed by a disorder I didn't even know existed. Depression can absolutely drain what you think is every last thing in you. But depersonalization/derealization takes what you didn't think you had left. It makes you more distant than you thought possible. You don't even have yourself anymore. I have no connection with myself. My memories feel like they're fading away. Feels like I'm stuck in a forced perspective first person game and when I look in the mirror it's not real. It's so hard to try and get the feeling to fight this when nobody even has a fucking clue about it or how to over come it. I have zero emotion towards anythind and keeping up an intelligent conversation just isn't possible. I have no connection to these people that have been in my life forever and it feels like creating new relationships is impossible. There's no such thing as a specialist. My best source of help so far has been tumblr. This happens a lot to me irl so I feel liked I probably come off on here as an asshole. Not that this is a place for apologizing for that sort of thing, I just mean I haven't been the person I once was. Hopefully i'll get there but its so hard not to lose hope.
I cried when I saw picture. This type of shit happens to me so much and I was terrified that I was alone. This stuff would have sounded entirely alien to me a year ago.
When did it turn from depression to this de-personalization? You've obviously been through a lot of shit man. But has anything happened lately that you think might've triggered that switch?
It just sucks I'm entirely missing out on life. I can't smoke, it's not something I can't think about as an option. It just makes everything 100% worse. A couple friends stopped hanging out with me because I don't smoke. It's whatever, they're shitty friends. Drinking I realized wasn't helping either but I kept doing it until it really became something negatively impacting me. I see couples who are happy together and the though of being with another human being just seems impossible to me. And I think about how I've done it before and how India is still a friend and it all seems so foreign, like none of it was me. I found this forum once for people with this. I thought it might help, and it did at first seeing that there were people who could say what I was feeling. They knew everything. But fuck man it couldn't have been any worse at all. It's just a fucking massive grave of dead souls, people talking about hanging in there but "I'm going on my 4th year....7th year...10th year" I don't understand how people do this for 10 fucking years. But at the same time I get how it happens. You want to get better but you don't do anything to help yourself. You just feel miserable about feeling miserable. Some people have beat it naturally and people have beat it with drugs, but theres just this pit in the middle of people who have't come close.
When did it turn from depression to this de-personalization? You've obviously been through a lot of shit man. But has anything happened lately that you think might've triggered that switch?
This might sound weird, but there was an actual trigger moment last year after dabbing. A lot of instances with is involve drugs, but everybody's story is different. I think there was a lot of shit going on in my life and now matter how much I thought I was dealing with it, maybe I wasn't. One night right when my friend got home from Iraq, we dabbed and I instantly sank into myself. I thought it was good ol fashion paranoia but everything felt off. When I talked, it felt like I had what was going on in my head, and the person talking wasn't me. The next night was the actual party at our apartment with more people to celebrate my friend coming home. I didn't dab but was talked into smoking. At first i was fine but it all happened again even worse. The whole night I was just trying to be cool but I was losing my shit. I thought I took the crazy train to schizophrenia town. I ended up winning a beer pong tourney and when we took the group photo I was immediately scared to see it because I thought I wouldn't recognize myself. The next couple weeks was me freaking out, not feeling okay but also not feeling as bad as I did while I was high. I continuously felt off though. For awhile I tried to ignore it thinking I would go back to normal and feel okay. But a year later I've snowballed into feeling like I did them nights 24/7 x 2.
Fuck. I cant even process what that must feel like. A couple years back i was severely depressed and i began deconstructing every little thing about life until i believed it was pointless. "I go to a place every day and do mindless labor in exchange for green pieces of paper so i can exchange those for a concrete box to go to and lie down in until i have to go do more labor" I even posted about it here just to vent because i certainly didnt want to feel that way.
Eventually it stopped. This seems way more complex though man. I dont know, have you considered visiting a doctor/psychologist to see if there's something they can do to help? Maybe even a therapist just to talk shit out with. As you said, maybe you havent really dealt with the things you've been going through like you think you have. Maybe this is your mind's way of protecting itself.
Yeah that sucks man. I can relate, but not on the same level. Some of the loss iv experienced has made me feel like im not myself. Iv had times where i have looked at pictures of me and my group of friends and felt like that wasn't me in the picture. I haven't experienced it while i was at a party though. More so when i think about my actions and where im heading and i go "man i just don't feel like myself."
Its kind of hard to explain. I can't even imagine what chuck is going through.
It does sound like it has something to do with trying to do with your brain trying to process and deal with everything that has happened to you.
If you have the ability i would defiantly try and see a therapist. Talking about things with someone who has an outside perspective is almost always beneficial. If nothing else it will help you feel better just to talk about things.
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I have a few friends who are great artists and have no problem putting places like that on blast. Because when you do, imo, you're doing a public service. You're saving people from wasting their time in looking for artists/shops. If you're not going to name the shop or artist..stfu
Once he becomes a ninja it won't be an issue.
Eventually it stopped. This seems way more complex though man. I dont know, have you considered visiting a doctor/psychologist to see if there's something they can do to help? Maybe even a therapist just to talk shit out with. As you said, maybe you havent really dealt with the things you've been going through like you think you have. Maybe this is your mind's way of protecting itself.
Its kind of hard to explain. I can't even imagine what chuck is going through.
It does sound like it has something to do with trying to do with your brain trying to process and deal with everything that has happened to you.
If you have the ability i would defiantly try and see a therapist. Talking about things with someone who has an outside perspective is almost always beneficial. If nothing else it will help you feel better just to talk about things.