I've been the person trying to talk people out of it. Back when I was your normal suburban kid without any troubles or hardships in life I didn't understand why anyone would actually feel the desire to end their own life. I get it now. I don't want to personally because I feel like killing myself would be letting the terrorists win but I fucking get it lol.
There's something that most people don't understand about all of it. It takes an incredibly strong willed individual to actually go through with it. I was at a point back in July where I contemplated it. I had it planned out at work. I was going to wait two weeks for my health insurance to kick in at work, and then one day i was just going to fall, or something. Because quite frankly, I didn't really see any future for me worthwhile. The only "future" i have is in construction, and it makes me miserable. The reason i always seem to vent the most random bullshit on here, even though I know 9/10 times it's just going to be made fun of, is because i hate being anywhere near most of my family. If i don't absolutely have to be, I'm not around them. I'm not posting that shit on FB because i don't want the majority of people on there reading it. But i figured out fairly quickly that despite what I had thought, I wasn't strong enough to do that. I've never heard of some random, dumb piece of shit weakling committing suicide. Everyone I know and have heard of that went through with it were some of the strongest people I've ever met. But honestly, I'm getting tired of burying friends. 3 is 3 too many for anyone to have to do. (not physically bury, but you get the point). Maria will be greatly missed, much more so than i would be. Idk, but i hate this. I wish i could do something, but i can't.
This is basically the reason why I love songs dealing with suicide. When someone gets to that point, and then actually pen out that misery and sorrow, it's just so raw and dark I love listening to it because of how real it is. It's also so interesting to me that someone would just willingly get rid of their existence. There is no Heaven and no hell, and you hate your life so much that instead of changing it you walk away from everything. this concept is IMHO much more darker then murder or slaughter or canibilism...
That said, I've also been suicidal in my life so I can relate to those irrational feelings too. Can't justify them but I understand the place
also I said this back in the spring but most of MC's snaps are just selfies of him trying to look badass and grim but he just looks horrible. seriously concerned for his health
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That said, I've also been suicidal in my life so I can relate to those irrational feelings too. Can't justify them but I understand the place