Dude Mc this chick obviously likes you way more than those other dudes. That should be all that matters. You could be her first real love making session.
Eh well. I'll be another month or so anyways. I'll just have to try and not be so mad about it by then, idk.
Yea. I fingered her last week. She really wants me to have sex with her, but I just cant go through with it. Doesnt help that I havent really been able to get horny since last week happened anyways.
But Im starting to have some serious freakouts about her sexual past. The more she talks about her past, the more I realize she did some shit that makes me sad - like fucked dudes who thought she was too fat, just because they were willing to put it in her - and it really pisses me off, and makes me feel like our sex wont mean anything. So Im kinda holding off on it. I cannot get over her history.
1. Honestly, it's better that she's up front and lets you know about her past.
2. People are kinda horrible to fat girls. Society evaluates women so heavily based on their looks that young, overweight girls have huge issues with their self-worth. It puts them in positions where they feel like they have to lower their physical and emotional expectations for a partner. I feel sorry for her. That's gotta be a terrible way to experience sex, especially consciously. Even though she may not physically be a virgin, she definitely sounds like an emotional one. Sex with someone that actually likes and cares about her would prolly be life altering for her self-esteem
Yeah. Sex when you have an emotional connection>>>>>
MC i get that it may be hard for you to get over her past. The thing is most people have sex to fill voids. They will have sex with someone they dont really actually care for because in the moment it makes them feel wanted.
You gotta try not to let it piss you off. Try to find some sympathy for her. She was just trying to fill a void and feel wanted/loved, which ultimately is what we all want. If you give that to her than the sex you have can and will be special regardless of who or how many people shes slept with.
I legit wanna fight her past partners. When she told me some of them told her she was too fat for sex, but went ahead and fucked her anyways, I got pissed off. And then she said none of them have ever made her orgasm, they all just fucked her, came, and left. They 100% used her for sex and it made me mad. And she's really submissive, so I know they took advange of her. And I told her I wanna throw hands with her exes.
Im not mad at her for this. Its all in my head. But I cant help but get angry and feel bad that someone else fucked her first, and pleasured her and got pleasured by her - the same shit I always said would bother me, really does. It hurts knowing she was vulnerable and intimate with other people. And Ive told her that and have been open about it.
Im not mad at her for this. Its all in my head. But I cant help but get angry and feel bad that someone else fucked her first, and pleasured her and got pleasured by her - the same shit I always said would bother me, really does. It hurts knowing she was vulnerable and intimate with other people. And Ive told her that and have been open about it.
Obviously I can't speak for her, but I wonder if in her head it makes her think that you're defining her by this. In which case, I'd imagine would make her feel equally as low. Gotta be careful with what/how you say things to people with that sort of mindset.
Ive just worded it that her sexual past intimidates me. She tells me to stop comparing myself to her past partners, but I cant get the thought of them being intimate together out of my head, and the emotions that come with those thoughts.
You do understand how selfish this is to say/think, right? I don't mean it in like a shot talk way, but shes also not the first person to go down on you. It's a two way street. Regardless, you cant expect anyone to be perfect, especially woman in that early 20s age group. From what you've said, shes been mistreated a lot by men, even if not intentively. You could change that. If you dont want to, then you should say so now and not drag her through dirt again. But dont bring shit like that up to her a couple months down the road.
You do understand how selfish this is to say/think, right? I don't mean it in like a shot talk way, but shes also not the first person to go down on you. It's a two way street. Regardless, you cant expect anyone to be perfect, especially woman in that early 20s age group. From what you've said, shes been mistreated a lot by men, even if not intentively. You could change that. If you dont want to, then you should say so now and not drag her through dirt again. But dont bring shit like that up to her a couple months down the road.
I havent forgotten about that. I feel that guilt and regret every day. And will for the rest of my life. I immediately regretted it, and turned it down the next day. And I would not expect or want her to accept or not get mad about that fact if she knew about it.
Im not going to hold it over her, but Im not going to accept it and be ok with it either. Ever. There will always be the thought of her and other people, and it hurts.
I guess the big question is this: Sex aside, can you maintain a relationship with this person without ever springing it on her, blowing up on her about it, or find yourself talking down to her because of it? If the answer is "I don't know ", then I think that's your answer.
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2. People are kinda horrible to fat girls. Society evaluates women so heavily based on their looks that young, overweight girls have huge issues with their self-worth. It puts them in positions where they feel like they have to lower their physical and emotional expectations for a partner. I feel sorry for her. That's gotta be a terrible way to experience sex, especially consciously. Even though she may not physically be a virgin, she definitely sounds like an emotional one. Sex with someone that actually likes and cares about her would prolly be life altering for her self-esteem
MC i get that it may be hard for you to get over her past. The thing is most people have sex to fill voids. They will have sex with someone they dont really actually care for because in the moment it makes them feel wanted.
You gotta try not to let it piss you off. Try to find some sympathy for her. She was just trying to fill a void and feel wanted/loved, which ultimately is what we all want. If you give that to her than the sex you have can and will be special regardless of who or how many people shes slept with.
Im not mad at her for this. Its all in my head. But I cant help but get angry and feel bad that someone else fucked her first, and pleasured her and got pleasured by her - the same shit I always said would bother me, really does. It hurts knowing she was vulnerable and intimate with other people. And Ive told her that and have been open about it.
Im not going to hold it over her, but Im not going to accept it and be ok with it either. Ever. There will always be the thought of her and other people, and it hurts.
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