Was driving with my mom to the hospital. We're talking about alcohol addiction, and it turns into talkin about my uncle (who isn't an alcoholic, but was drinking an unhealthy amount for a breif period of time), which turned into talking about my uncle's current girlfriend.
Then my mom asked if I had found anyone yet. Told her "no", like I always do. And she said that I'll find somebody someday. I just laughed. She asked if I still had feelings for my friend back at home, and I told her "I don't know what I feel anymore".
Told her that I've basically just given up on the whole idea of "love" and relationships. She said I just hadn't found the right person yet. I told her I didn't think I ever would. I went into how I look at relationships differently than everybody else I know. She asked how. I went into some detail of my views. She asked if my counselor was helping. I told her he was in the sense that he is accepting of my views, and is somebody I could talk to - but he still thought my views were strange and advanced for somebody of my age. She again said that I'd change my views if I met the right person. We went into my friend who has slowly been becoming a bit of a womanizer - at least in thought and speech, not action.
Then I said something about having an issue about sex. She asked if I was afraid of sex, and I told her "yes". She told me not to be afraid of if. I told her its beyond fear, its animosity towards it. I told her that when I find out a girl has had sex with other dudes before, I 100% lose all interest in her. And that as I get older, more and more girls are having sex. So my interest pool is quickly diminishing. She said she completely understands why I wouldn't be interested in a girl who has had sex with other dudes, and that that is fairly normal.
Then we got to the hospital and the conversation was dropped.
What a fucking ridiculous fucked up last few pages - jsut shut th fuck up MC & take DimebagDallas & Hybrid's advice they gave u on the old boards or go jack off to ur babymetal or some shit - i take what i said back when i joined, this place is more fucked up then the old boards
What a fucking ridiculous fucked up last few pages - jsut shut th fuck up MC & take DimebagDallas & Hybrid's advice they gave u on the old boards or go jack off to ur babymetal or some shit - i take what i said back when i joined, this place is more fucked up then the old boards
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I would would seriously love to meet Leah and Monica in real life one day....preferably at the same time
Then my mom asked if I had found anyone yet. Told her "no", like I always do. And she said that I'll find somebody someday. I just laughed. She asked if I still had feelings for my friend back at home, and I told her "I don't know what I feel anymore".
Told her that I've basically just given up on the whole idea of "love" and relationships. She said I just hadn't found the right person yet. I told her I didn't think I ever would. I went into how I look at relationships differently than everybody else I know. She asked how. I went into some detail of my views. She asked if my counselor was helping. I told her he was in the sense that he is accepting of my views, and is somebody I could talk to - but he still thought my views were strange and advanced for somebody of my age. She again said that I'd change my views if I met the right person. We went into my friend who has slowly been becoming a bit of a womanizer - at least in thought and speech, not action.
Then I said something about having an issue about sex. She asked if I was afraid of sex, and I told her "yes". She told me not to be afraid of if. I told her its beyond fear, its animosity towards it. I told her that when I find out a girl has had sex with other dudes before, I 100% lose all interest in her. And that as I get older, more and more girls are having sex. So my interest pool is quickly diminishing. She said she completely understands why I wouldn't be interested in a girl who has had sex with other dudes, and that that is fairly normal.
Then we got to the hospital and the conversation was dropped.