The definition of seppuku is "stomach cutting". You cant commit seppuky by swallowing something.
You're stupid then and dont know what real ultimate power is. I suggest you edumcate yourself and first read my link above on seppuku by Frisbee and then get all the other real facts about Ninjas at link below cause you apparently dont know anything.
Im not an expert in psychology but I truly believe that you are basing your happiness on your relationship status with your friend. It seems to me that the lack of having her be your gf is causing you to think negative things about yourself and fueling your depression. I personally think you'd start getting a lot healthier if you cut off contact with her and started mentally demeaning her by focusing on negative aspects of her personality (or make them up if they arent there). I know you don't want to do this, but I personally think it is the only way you will get healthy. And I think you will continue down your current path of depression until this issue is resolved.
It's like you said... You have a lot to be grateful for. Great friends, Great family, college opportunities, and even hobbies to keep you busy. All these things are great and will help you get better, but you're going to need to cut off that toxic relationship. Not toxic because she is doing anything wrong, but because it is hurting your mental state to let it continue as it is.
To Nola's disagree - What I said here is TLDR'd by "environmental depression". It's literally what I told MC.
Wtf is environmental depression? i thought you loved trees and shit
It means that only a small part of my depression is chemical and genetic. The majority of it is triggered by self-talk, and when I'm socially low, or low with my hobby/outlets. Basically.
The main causes (at least based on what we talked about today) is my lack of band, me being in Nashville when all my friends and family are back home, not having a super close-knit group of friends here like I have back home, and all the complications with the girl/me not opening up to girls here.
Wtf is environmental depression? i thought you loved trees and shit
It means that only a small part of my depression is chemical and genetic. The majority of it is triggered by self-talk, and when I'm socially low, or low with my hobby/outlets. Basically.
How much does this guy get paid? We've been telling you the same shit for months now. If we are talking about our feelings here, I feel like you owe us some money.
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>already diagnosed
i thought you loved trees and shit
You need to go outside and hug a tree