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YOU KNOW WHAT REALLY GRINDS MY GEARS? (NSFW)

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  • JLRedWing13JLRedWing13 Posts: 48,747 mod
    I'm lower than I have ever been right now... Just got off Skype with my mom, and just talking about school depressed the fuck out of me. I'm going nowhere in life. I've lost all my drive and focus. My passion is drying up. I'm a failure. Straight up. Haven't so much as wrote a song in a year. Can't find a band. I feel like I've plateaued as a guitarist. My music "career" is dead. My blog is dead. Haven't recorded anybody outside of class last year. Not that I have that people would have me to produce anyways when it seems like everyone around me is more talented and better equipped for the job. I'm actually doing well in school this year. So far straight As. But I'm just going through the motions of class. All my friends are back home, doing their own things. Working on their lives. My brother is off at college. Nobody needs me anymore. I used to feel like I had some sort of "leadership" role in my friend group. Thought I was somebody my friends and brother looked up to, or could come to in a bind. But I don't feel that way anymore. I honestly feel like I will die alone. That all my friends and family will have moved on, and gotten married and families and all that, I will be living alone for the rest of my life - watching as everyone I care about moves on with their lives. And the thing is, I don't know what I can do to make it any better. I like playing videogames, and watching bullshit TV, and reading comics - and don't want to cut that out of my life. But it also isn't all that fullfilling, nor advancing to my goals. They're important to who I am, but they're just past-times. I don't know what would make me happy at this point. And I'm at the point where I'm seriously thinking about giving up on my dreams, and getting a regular job and living life like a regular Jack-off. Because when I honestly think about it: I'm not talented enough, nor unique enough to make it in the music industry. At this school, I look around me and I constantly see people already making it happen. People who were already making it happen before they even left high school. I'm behind. Way behind. And at this point I don't think I can catch up to the level of success and creativity my peers, and competition possess. 

    And the sad thing is, I'm starting to think about suicide again. I'm not suicidal. Do not confuse it with that. I do not want to kill myself. Mainly because I do not want to hurt my friends and family, and make them feel guilty or sad. But I'm thinking about it in the sense that I'm ok with dying. 
    >:D<
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  • FLATFLAT Posts: 60,846 spicy boy
    Bar has football on two tvs and I just saw the tigers win. Fucking disgusting. 
  • JLRedWing13JLRedWing13 Posts: 48,747 mod
    tigers win
    \m/
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  • FLATFLAT Posts: 60,846 spicy boy
  • GnomezGnomez Posts: 17,552 master of ceremonies
    You didn't miss anything 
  • GnomezGnomez Posts: 17,552 master of ceremonies
    We have a stage 5 clinger boys. Won't stop blowin up my phone I'm bout to go apeshit.
    Abort abort abort!
    time to evacuate the ship!

  • GnomezGnomez Posts: 17,552 master of ceremonies
    I'm lower than I have ever been right now... Just got off Skype with my mom, and just talking about school depressed the fuck out of me. I'm going nowhere in life. I've lost all my drive and focus. My passion is drying up. I'm a failure. Straight up. Haven't so much as wrote a song in a year. Can't find a band. I feel like I've plateaued as a guitarist. My music "career" is dead. My blog is dead. Haven't recorded anybody outside of class last year. Not that I have that people would have me to produce anyways when it seems like everyone around me is more talented and better equipped for the job. I'm actually doing well in school this year. So far straight As. But I'm just going through the motions of class. All my friends are back home, doing their own things. Working on their lives. My brother is off at college. Nobody needs me anymore. I used to feel like I had some sort of "leadership" role in my friend group. Thought I was somebody my friends and brother looked up to, or could come to in a bind. But I don't feel that way anymore. I honestly feel like I will die alone. That all my friends and family will have moved on, and gotten married and families and all that, I will be living alone for the rest of my life - watching as everyone I care about moves on with their lives. And the thing is, I don't know what I can do to make it any better. I like playing videogames, and watching bullshit TV, and reading comics - and don't want to cut that out of my life. But it also isn't all that fullfilling, nor advancing to my goals. They're important to who I am, but they're just past-times. I don't know what would make me happy at this point. And I'm at the point where I'm seriously thinking about giving up on my dreams, and getting a regular job and living life like a regular Jack-off. Because when I honestly think about it: I'm not talented enough, nor unique enough to make it in the music industry. At this school, I look around me and I constantly see people already making it happen. People who were already making it happen before they even left high school. I'm behind. Way behind. And at this point I don't think I can catch up to the level of success and creativity my peers, and competition possess. 

    And the sad thing is, I'm starting to think about suicide again. I'm not suicidal. Do not confuse it with that. I do not want to kill myself. Mainly because I do not want to hurt my friends and family, and make them feel guilty or sad. But I'm thinking about it in the sense that I'm ok with dying. 
    >:D<
    MC you have loads of friends, know lots about music and are passionate about it. Join some clubs or take up a sport. Get involved in shit and don't mope around at home on the Internet 
  • Jobe_Wan_KenobiJobe_Wan_Kenobi Posts: 19,659 moneytalker
    You finally acknowledged your problem. There's your start. Be proactive. That's all I'll tell you cause it'll prolly go in one ear and out the other wit you. I was in that exact same mindset.
    I agree with Erik 100%.

    Have those words ever been used here in that order?

    So now what MC?
    Pass the god damn butter.
  • MetalCoresadesMetalCoresades Posts: 58,038 spicy boy
    >failed a critical listening quiz
    >no worry, I get two attempts
    > study the first attempt, and listen to those sound files.
    >think I have it
    >second attempt
    >fail second attempt
    >WHAT THE FUCK!?
    >compare the two attempts, same sound files, different order. I answered what the first attempt said was right.
    >this is some fuck-shit. 
    Do You Like Hurting Other People?
  • Number1RamsFanNumber1RamsFan Posts: 9,477 destroyer of motherfuckers
    Maybe you just have a listening problem
  • MetalCoresadesMetalCoresades Posts: 58,038 spicy boy
    When I can see the answers after my attempts, and the answers don't match for the same sound files (especially when my attempt 2 is giving me what I answered for attempt 1, and vise versa) there is some fuck shit. They're the exact same sound file. 
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  • FLATFLAT Posts: 60,846 spicy boy
    Buddy told my other buddy who is pretty much a chick about everything that I fucked his friend in the pool. Dudes irate for no reason and blowing my shit up like some grade school bs. =))
  • FIRENATHANIELHACKETTFIRENATHANIELHACKETT Posts: 35,453 spicy boy
    Prolly wanted a piece of that so he irate now
  • MetalCoresadesMetalCoresades Posts: 58,038 spicy boy
    I bought some milk the other day, and forgot to check when it went bad by. Went bad yesterday. I opened the carton today. Thought "eh, its only been one day, and I just opened it. It doesn't smell bad, and its consistency is fine, so what the hell?" And have been drinking it all day. And now my stomach really hurts. I hope I just have to take a massive shit, and that I didn't get sick. 
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  • NOCAPNOCAP Posts: 37,373 mod
    I feel like you've been in college since I was in high school. God damn


  • OPPOPP Posts: 50,132 spicy boy
    I changed my major three times. shit puts you back a bit sadly :-/
    I love winning with women
  • OPPOPP Posts: 50,132 spicy boy
    so yeah basically I have been. started fall 09.
    I love winning with women
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