More than likely December. thing is it's been a couple days of this so far and shits hit the fan twice and been kicked out of the car ten miles from home once. my mom is insane. I love her and my whole family in the end, obviously, but its a living hell right now. they're super catholic too, so anything drugs or sex is out, drinking is strongly frowned upon.
today was an event in itself. with the whole AC repair thing and the only entrance to the attic is through my closet. forgot all about the unused condoms I brought back from jersey. they found em. lost their shit. that one Im arguing till the end doe, because that's not a narcotic, I been legal age for five years, 0 )
Sounds pretty shitty but it is what it is. Everybody has to play the hand that they are dealt in life, there is no reshuffling of the deck. It sounds like you just have to get better at playing the game until you get a new hand. Clean your shit up and quit getting busted. Stick it out and know that the bullshit is only temporary if you keep on the right path and working towards your goals. It's like moving a big ass boulder to the other side of a hill. It might seem impossible at first, but you just have to move that fucking rock a little each day. As long as you move it a little each day, you will get there, and once you do, shit starts moving on its own. You just cant get overwhelmed and never start or stop moving the rock and hope it gets there on its own.
Sounds pretty shitty but it is what it is. Everybody has to play the hand that they are dealt in life, there is no reshuffling of the deck. It sounds like you just have to get better at playing the game until you get a new hand. Clean your shit up and quit getting busted. Stick it out and know that the bullshit is only temporary if you keep on the right path and working towards your goals. It's like moving a big ass boulder to the other side of a hill. It might seem impossible at first, but you just have to move that fucking rock a little each day. As long as you move it a little each day, you will get there, and once you do, shit starts moving on its own. You just cant get overwhelmed and never start or stop moving the rock and hope it gets there on its own.
Im just grateful its the final year of this even being in the cards at all. idk what I would do if this were happening three years ago.
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today was an event in itself. with the whole AC repair thing and the only entrance to the attic is through my closet. forgot all about the unused condoms I brought back from jersey. they found em. lost their shit. that one Im arguing till the end doe, because that's not a narcotic, I been legal age for five years, 0
jan - may 16th: moved into apartment, stayed there, got best grades Ive gotten since I began college in 09.
---summer begins---
may 17th - the bianca thing/no mdf/mad sudden debt/straight edge for ten days
june - school funds run out, ohshit mode activated
july - old pipe and accessories found, placed on house arrest, only money existing is from parents, hoop jumping begins
august - condoms found, shit worsens for no reason at all
feel like Im missing a few events, but here we are
#thestruggle