My manager said he was going to be leaving for over a month but didn't tell us why. Figured I'd respect his privacy and now my drunk team lead casually says he has bowel cancer. Fuck man
Disclaimer: No humble flex at all so try to start shit if you wish.
So it hit me yesterday, especially after a talk wit my bro. Obviously wantin a career in music, I need relevancy, fans, fame, etc. whatever term you wanna use. I would say I want music as a career over "I wanna be famous", but for the former to be a reality, I have to say that I want the latter. But it's crazy and eye opening to see it all come together. I'm not famous, but on a local level I'm really comin up. Everybody know my name now. And it's crazy to witness both how it changes your life and how shallow people are. And it's contradictory cause at the same time I obviously love it, gettin the recognition for the thing I been at for 6 years steady. And I can't get anywhere without them. And from a social aspect, it feels good comin from a point where I was a complete loner and this place was my only social interaction. But it's funny how all of a sudden everyone wanna fuck wit me, be around me, be seen wit me at parties, etc. Even all the females that wanna fuck it usually starts wit the music lately. Knowin damn well nobody gave a fuck before the music and the newfound recognition that came wit it. And again it's a contradictory thing for me cause at the same time it feels amazing because I made myself a somebody my OWN way, doin what I love and bein good at what I love. But due to the kinda person I am, there's somethin bout it that rubs me kinda wrong. Luckily it's somethin I already see right thru so it's not somethin that's gonna take advantage of me, but still.
Honestly i have no real issues with it, i just take photos for 3 songs and book it if i feel like it. But man....i really don't want to be anywhere near that crowd. Plus, i was kinda looking forward to shooting Journey that night. I realize Gomez and/or Beiber photos would get more traffic than Journey, i just know i would personally enjoy it a whole lot more.
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Was actually watching Angry Beavers about an hour ago.
So it hit me yesterday, especially after a talk wit my bro. Obviously wantin a career in music, I need relevancy, fans, fame, etc. whatever term you wanna use. I would say I want music as a career over "I wanna be famous", but for the former to be a reality, I have to say that I want the latter. But it's crazy and eye opening to see it all come together. I'm not famous, but on a local level I'm really comin up. Everybody know my name now. And it's crazy to witness both how it changes your life and how shallow people are. And it's contradictory cause at the same time I obviously love it, gettin the recognition for the thing I been at for 6 years steady. And I can't get anywhere without them. And from a social aspect, it feels good comin from a point where I was a complete loner and this place was my only social interaction. But it's funny how all of a sudden everyone wanna fuck wit me, be around me, be seen wit me at parties, etc. Even all the females that wanna fuck it usually starts wit the music lately. Knowin damn well nobody gave a fuck before the music and the newfound recognition that came wit it. And again it's a contradictory thing for me cause at the same time it feels amazing because I made myself a somebody my OWN way, doin what I love and bein good at what I love. But due to the kinda person I am, there's somethin bout it that rubs me kinda wrong. Luckily it's somethin I already see right thru so it's not somethin that's gonna take advantage of me, but still.
Edit - It's separate shows btw, beiber and gomez.
Was offered these shows
Ellie Golding - 6/2
Selena gomez - 6/10
Weezer/Panic at the disco - 6/15
Keith Urban - 6/17
DEmi Lovato - 6/25
Bieber - 6/30
Twenty One Pilots w/ Mutemath - 7/1
Warped tour 7/2 - 7/5
Modest Mouse w/ Brand New - 7/9
G-Eazy w/ Logic - 7/17
Snoop Dogg w/ Wiz Khalifa - 7/21
Counting Crows - 7/23
Dave Matthews Band - 7/27
Guns N Roses - 7/29