I quit my lab job. At the time I felt like a badass with a power play, literally calling my managers shit on my way out. I left with determination to find a new full time job, and start my new career future... And now I regret my decision because I haven't been able to find dick, and I am severely missing the paycheck. I'm willing to get a job cleaning toilets at this point.
My old guitarist is doing extremely well with a new job, a girlfriend that does porn, his new main band is having success and just opened for Cryptopsy, and his new Avenged Sevenfold cover band is blowing up playing to over 300 people at their first show alone, and is already headlining shows in less than two months. Which caused me to have a mental breakdown where I lashed out at some musician friends, and I ended up unfriending nearly every person/connection I knew from the music scene from social media, burning nearly every bridge I built. I haven't even looked at my guitars since November, and still have no plans to ever get into music ever again though.
So I'm severely depressed, and basically feel like a loser and failure every day 🤙 I'm going to my cousin's wedding this weekend where I'm the only cousin out of 9 who doesn't have a real job and is a fuck up, so that will be fun.
I did go to an anime convention the other week though. I drank a fuck ton, and smoked tobacco out of my pipe for the first time. So that was a 10/10 weekend.
I’m sorry. That all sounds rough and slightly similar to what I’ve been going through. Though I’ve been getting promoted and it looks like I can drop the second job soon. I won’t be making amazing money but it’ll be decent
I guess one thing of note for me is I’ve started dating again. First time in around 3ish years, I think? We’ve been together for a couple of months and I’ve legit never been this happy with someone, as gay as that sounds. I hate using this word, but I’m starting to realize I have some trauma to work through from all the shit that happened last time I dated someone but she’s so understanding it’s kind of incredible. Trying my hardest not to fuck this one up.
I guess one thing of note for me is I’ve started dating again. First time in around 3ish years, I think? We’ve been together for a couple of months and I’ve legit never been this happy with someone, as gay as that sounds. I hate using this word, but I’m starting to realize I have some trauma to work through from all the shit that happened last time I dated someone but she’s so understanding it’s kind of incredible. Trying my hardest not to fuck this one up.
I’m starting to realize I have some trauma to work through from all the shit that happened last time I dated someone
Starting to think that are ya? That one gets a big fucking duh, bruh. The Captain Obvious sign has big fucking letters on it with neon and glitter and shit.
I’m starting to realize I have some trauma to work through from all the shit that happened last time I dated someone
Starting to think that are ya? That one gets a big fucking duh, bruh. The Captain Obvious sign has big fucking letters on it with neon and glitter and shit.
By starting to think, I mean it’s been destroying me inside daily and I’m really trying to get myself out of my own way and not screw this up but thanks
That event was one of the reasons I made the mental health thread. Lance was dealing with losing his dad at the same time. Other members had their own life changing shit going on. Everyone was dealing with something and there were a lot of private messages going around but nobody was really talking about anything publicly so there was no support even though people were all going through similar shit. It was getting hard to keep up with everybody, Still took forever to get people going on that thread.
My dad had his illiostomy closed 2 weeks ago and afterword his colon burst and leaked septic into his body cavity.
They got it cleaned up quick and him on iv antibiotics, but they had to put him on an incubator for a few days and sedate him.
When you have never seen a parent like that, it can be a shock to your system. It took me the whole time he was under to really even deal with the emotions of it.
He's back awake now, and his outlook is good. But seeing him so frail is just not the way I ever pictured my dad.
I'm hitting thr middle part of my life and I'm starting to kind of struggle with it. Idk if it's a mid life crisis status, but I just feel blah about where I'm at and where I'm going lol.
My dad’s eye surgery was a mixed bag. He says it will improve sometime, but it’s inconsistent. One day he can see only colors, others he can see but with a black dot in the middle. It became so swollen last week they thought he might need an additional surgery. It’s since calmed down, but it’s very touch and go
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My old guitarist is doing extremely well with a new job, a girlfriend that does porn, his new main band is having success and just opened for Cryptopsy, and his new Avenged Sevenfold cover band is blowing up playing to over 300 people at their first show alone, and is already headlining shows in less than two months. Which caused me to have a mental breakdown where I lashed out at some musician friends, and I ended up unfriending nearly every person/connection I knew from the music scene from social media, burning nearly every bridge I built. I haven't even looked at my guitars since November, and still have no plans to ever get into music ever again though.
So I'm severely depressed, and basically feel like a loser and failure every day 🤙
I'm going to my cousin's wedding this weekend where I'm the only cousin out of 9 who doesn't have a real job and is a fuck up, so that will be fun.
I did go to an anime convention the other week though. I drank a fuck ton, and smoked tobacco out of my pipe for the first time. So that was a 10/10 weekend.
My dad had his illiostomy closed 2 weeks ago and afterword his colon burst and leaked septic into his body cavity.
They got it cleaned up quick and him on iv antibiotics, but they had to put him on an incubator for a few days and sedate him.
When you have never seen a parent like that, it can be a shock to your system. It took me the whole time he was under to really even deal with the emotions of it.
He's back awake now, and his outlook is good. But seeing him so frail is just not the way I ever pictured my dad.
I'm hitting thr middle part of my life and I'm starting to kind of struggle with it. Idk if it's a mid life crisis status, but I just feel blah about where I'm at and where I'm going lol.
I turned 36 recently and honestly feel the most emotionally mature I've ever been.
Also we got some pretty developed baby pics because we're old and have ultrasounds ever 6 weeks now. Only about 8 weeks to go!!