Been in a scary place the past 2 days and all I know is I'm never touching Xanax again. Only did it 4 times total and that was enough to trigger what I believe was a withdrawal reaction. Or at least that's most likely. I'm lookin at either that, or psychosis, serotonin syndrome, or drug induced depersonalization. Regardless of what it is, it's the most empty I've ever felt. Been up over 30 hours simply cause there was no way to fall asleep yesterday morning. Tired as fuck but completely unable to knock out due to the restlessness and the empty chest pains. Felt exactly like the depression/heartbreak induced chest pain you feel, but so much worse. So much more hollow. It went from that to complete emotional disconnection over the course of the day. Not depressed, literally emotionally blank, unable to feel at all, completely numb. I WANTED to be depressed just to fucking feel something. It was terrifying. Especially when it set in that I didn't know how long it would last. It was complete disconnection, literally just experiencing yourself as a physical shell and nothing else, no substance. Everything felt like a dream due to this plus the lack of sleep, started believing delusional thoughts (For instance I got a text and replied and started thinking if that message was ever actually sent or if it was just a scenario in a dream.).
Whatever it was, it's finally lifting, wit the most relieving aspect being that that fucking chest pain is gone. Extremely happy and in good spirits right now just cause I can fucking feel emotions. Not being able to was one of the scariest things I've ever felt. Being disconnected from your own mind.
If it was withdrawal after only 4 lifetime uses, that should be enough to scare anyone away.
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Question was rhetorical.
I was really indirectly calling Erik a post flagging little bitch while comparing him to a girl.
It wasnt a real mystery, although I enjoyed Jake getting dragged into it out of nowhere.
Please, go on.....
I know. I only answered so I could say jake.
Go on....
keep riding my dick you buck toothed faggot
Flagged ur post.
I can literally feel the evil flowing in my veins right now. Its stronger than the power of Castle Grayskull.
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You guys are all over each other's dicks 24/7
up being funny is like a full moon lol
Wax is pretty awesome other than. It fucks your tolerance
I've never met anyone who doesn't like wax. Do you not like getting high or something?
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I barely ever flag your posts compared to everyone else here
Been in a scary place the past 2 days and all I know is I'm never touching Xanax again. Only did it 4 times total and that was enough to trigger what I believe was a withdrawal reaction. Or at least that's most likely. I'm lookin at either that, or psychosis, serotonin syndrome, or drug induced depersonalization. Regardless of what it is, it's the most empty I've ever felt. Been up over 30 hours simply cause there was no way to fall asleep yesterday morning. Tired as fuck but completely unable to knock out due to the restlessness and the empty chest pains. Felt exactly like the depression/heartbreak induced chest pain you feel, but so much worse. So much more hollow. It went from that to complete emotional disconnection over the course of the day. Not depressed, literally emotionally blank, unable to feel at all, completely numb. I WANTED to be depressed just to fucking feel something. It was terrifying. Especially when it set in that I didn't know how long it would last. It was complete disconnection, literally just experiencing yourself as a physical shell and nothing else, no substance. Everything felt like a dream due to this plus the lack of sleep, started believing delusional thoughts (For instance I got a text and replied and started thinking if that message was ever actually sent or if it was just a scenario in a dream.).
Whatever it was, it's finally lifting, wit the most relieving aspect being that that fucking chest pain is gone. Extremely happy and in good spirits right now just cause I can fucking feel emotions. Not being able to was one of the scariest things I've ever felt. Being disconnected from your own mind.
If it was withdrawal after only 4 lifetime uses, that should be enough to scare anyone away.
I dont know if thats the xanax. I took about 30 bars in a span of 4 days once and I didnt feel like that afterwards.
Yea weed been a lifesaver the past few days while going thru this. Only fucking relief available.
damn sounds like you've been spr busy improving your life
yeah let's blame the Xanax you have done a couple times and not the dissociative drug you're hooked on
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