So. For those of you unaware, I'm in quite a mess with my (technically) ex, and it ended horribly. Wasn't her fault, nor mine, her family is just crazy.
Court custody battle is coming up, and it's gonna be the last day of the battle, when it is decided who she goes with. If she goes with her dad, then I'll never see her again. Ever. Period.
This whole time, since we kinda broke up, it's been that situation where we're together, but at the same time, we're not. You guys know what I'm talking about.
I don't know...is it bad that I haven't let go yet? Is it bad that I'm still holding on to hope even though everything seems hopeless? I'm still holding out a vague hope that everything is gonna work out, even though the odds are stacked against me astronomically.
I don't know guys....I just don't know
It wasn't supposed to happen like this. Everything was great, and I did everything right to have this relationship in the first place. I learned from all my past mistakes, and did the exact opposite. I waited. I stayed in the friend zone. I was reluctant to tell her how I felt because I was so scared of being rejected, or that she wouldn't feel the same way, or I would just ruin our friendship. I even finally asked her dad (Who I would kill now) if it was okay to date her.
Everything was perfect. Nobody can say I didn't try. Nobody can say I didn't fight.
It's just......last summer seems like a fucking lifetime ago. I still remember LAST year's Mayhem Fest clear as day. I remember walking and then I walked right in front of Brad and Dayna's car. I remember texting my girl and talking about how excited I was for the day. Hell, I remember grabbing an extra tour program and having Rob Flynn sign it at make it out to her.
I just don't know how I got here. I don't know what brought me here. I don't know why I'm here, what happened, or what the future will bring. A small part of me wants to just let her go and move on with my life, but the internal struggle it brings me is horrible. The only thing I know for sure is, if her dad gets custody, I'll never see her again.
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Wasthis after getting it in?
And he did. 8-X
YEAAAAAH YA PUSH IT
YEAAAAAH YA PUSH IT
DUN NUH NUH NUHH
Court custody battle is coming up, and it's gonna be the last day of the battle, when it is decided who she goes with. If she goes with her dad, then I'll never see her again. Ever. Period.
This whole time, since we kinda broke up, it's been that situation where we're together, but at the same time, we're not. You guys know what I'm talking about.
I don't know...is it bad that I haven't let go yet? Is it bad that I'm still holding on to hope even though everything seems hopeless? I'm still holding out a vague hope that everything is gonna work out, even though the odds are stacked against me astronomically.
I don't know guys....I just don't know
It wasn't supposed to happen like this. Everything was great, and I did everything right to have this relationship in the first place. I learned from all my past mistakes, and did the exact opposite. I waited. I stayed in the friend zone. I was reluctant to tell her how I felt because I was so scared of being rejected, or that she wouldn't feel the same way, or I would just ruin our friendship. I even finally asked her dad (Who I would kill now) if it was okay to date her.
Everything was perfect. Nobody can say I didn't try. Nobody can say I didn't fight.
It's just......last summer seems like a fucking lifetime ago. I still remember LAST year's Mayhem Fest clear as day. I remember walking and then I walked right in front of Brad and Dayna's car. I remember texting my girl and talking about how excited I was for the day. Hell, I remember grabbing an extra tour program and having Rob Flynn sign it at make it out to her.
I just don't know how I got here. I don't know what brought me here. I don't know why I'm here, what happened, or what the future will bring. A small part of me wants to just let her go and move on with my life, but the internal struggle it brings me is horrible. The only thing I know for sure is, if her dad gets custody, I'll never see her again.
/inb4 there's other girls and blah blah blah